|Shadow as a youngster.|
Shadow was my houdini dog ... he could escape from places and wiggle his way out of tight crevices. He was without a doubt a street smart dog. After his sister Shen died on 9/15/2006 to spleen cancer it seemed like a part of him died too. Then on July 2, 2007 we lost Shadow to intestinal cancer. I found the following emails as I was going through my old emails remembering Shadow this morning:
June 19, 2007 3:55:53 AM CDT
|Shadow in June, 2007 ... a week before|
we had to say goodbye.
I sent the email below to fellow volunteers at Pet Haven. Many of you are aware that it was 9 months ago when we lost our sweet Shen to spleen cancer. We are now faced with the impending loss of our boy Shadow. Tonight has been a rough night. He has woken me up twice tonight. This last time he was vomiting. He has had good days sprinkled with not so good moments. The vet warned us that he may decline rapidly. Moments like now make me realize our days are numbered. His sister Missy knows. As I lay curled up with Shadow on the floor on their large LL Bean dog bed, Missy joins us and presses her body against his, and licks my face. Two dogs and half a human body scrunched up on a dog bed. Moments like these are what I will cherish.
As Shadow approaches Rainbow Bridge, please keep him in your thoughts and prayers. May we have many more days under the sun with him, and may we have many more days blessed with his presence, and may our hearts know when it is time to let him go.
Sent: Monday, June 18, 2007 9:50 PM
We had our surgical consult for Shadow at the U today, and a couple more tests. We are awaiting the final report by the pathologists on the biopsy of the mass in his intestine, but preliminary results confirm he has a very aggressive cancer. Surgery carries too much risk for a dog his age (11 and a half years), and after much thought and reflection, we have decided to not put him through major surgery. We will continue to work with our regular vet and try to make his last weeks (and hopefully months) as comfortable as possible through diet and alternative treatments. For now, he still has a spring in his step and if it weren't for his occasional vomiting and losing weight, you would never know he is walking the final road of his incredible life's journey. He continues to patrol our backyard, fixating on squirrels in our neighbor's yards. Our four-legged friends are simply amazing -- their stoic nature hides symptoms of cancer till it is too late. In some ways, I wish he would've complained sooner. Other times, I am reminded of how much humans can learn from our four-legged friends.
We are grateful for the time he has given. We are grateful for the opportunity he is giving to us to say goodbye -- nine months ago cancer took Shen so quickly that we did not have time for a proper
goodbye. Now we have a chance to savor the gift of his presence.
We will fill our hearts with Shadow moments, which will become our precious memories.
I created the following video shortly after Shadow died ... my tribute to this furry angel who touched my heart, my life and my soul ... I still miss you little boy: