My surgeon tells me that the atypical cells and cancer cells aren't forming lumps. They are spread throughout my breasts. My gut tells me there's something happening at a cellular level in my body ... some changes and transformation ... not just in my breast and in my pancreas but throughout my body. I don't know what it is and it's not good or bad ... I can just 'feel' something. For now, I know that I am not ready to make any major decisions and I need to sit with all of this and allow time and space for the wisdom of my body and my spirit to guide me.
There is this great story (and there are many versions out there) ... the following is the Jainism version of the story "Elephant and the Blind Men" ... a beautiful reminder to me that there are many Truths. I need to open my mind and my heart to the many possibilities and paths that are before me.
ELEPHANT AND THE BLIND MEN
Once upon a time, there lived six blind men in a village. One day the villagers told them, "Hey, there is an elephant in the village today."
They had no idea what an elephant is. They decided, "Even though we would not be able to see it, let us go and feel it anyway." All of them went where the elephant was. Everyone of them touched the elephant.
"Hey, the elephant is a pillar," said the first man who touched his leg.
"Oh, no! it is like a rope," said the second man who touched the tail.
"Oh, no! it is like a thick branch of a tree," said the third man who touched the trunk of the elephant.
"It is like a big hand fan" said the fourth man who touched the ear of the elephant.
"It is like a huge wall," said the fifth man who touched the belly of the elephant.
"It is like a solid pipe," Said the sixth man who touched the tusk of the elephant.
They began to argue about the elephant and everyone of them insisted that he was right. It looked like they were getting agitated. A wise man was passing by and he saw this. He stopped and asked them, "What is the matter?" They said, "We cannot agree to what the elephant is like." Each one of them told what he thought the elephant was like. The wise man calmly explained to them, "All of you are right. The reason every one of you is telling it differently because each one of you touched the different part of the elephant. So, actually the elephant has all those features what you all said."
"Oh!" everyone said. There was no more fight. They felt happy that they were all right.